You must have noticed that I haven’t really been blogging. Yeah I do the odd post here and there, but I haven’t done anything to make you say: “Hey the Stilettomum is back!”
I don’t know what is going on with me, but I do not function well in calm.
My life, my house, my finances are a mess. It’s like life is to good and I’m too scared to jump in and enjoy because I know as soon as I do, it’s all going to shit again.
I function better in drama and madness. My OCD kicks in and all is awesome again. Yes I bitch and moan but when it’s over and the calmness comes, I have no clue what to do with myself.
Basically, I’m in a calmness rut.
My schedule is empty – not because I don’t have things to do or places to go, but because I keep cancelling and shifting things around.
I’m back to feeling lost.
I need crazy, I need new goals, I need, I need, I need…
Sitting on my butt and avoiding the world is not going to help me get what I need.
But how do I kick my own behind to get going? Where would I start?
I know that as soon as I make a list find reasons no to do them.
So I’m making a list (yeah I can hear you laughing)
To do list:
· Make a to do list
Now to get cracking. Laters.